Post by naener5000 on Mar 17, 2020 16:01:16 GMT
I have lost 4 very close friends in 6 years and I’ve never coped or grieved any of them. The most recent friend I lost was my best friend and I lost him 5 months ago. Today is his birthday and it’s been so incredibly hard to deal with. And yet again I didn’t grieve this loss and I feel so overwhelmed with grief now. Everything has caught up with me. I don’t even know where to begin to feel whole again because honestly I feel so broken 95% of the time and I’m just holding it together by smiling. I miss all of them and wish they were here today. So though it’s my best friends birthday, I am grieving everyone today. Idk how to handle this.